Living inside a scream
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"...When all is going well, our world is a small, controlled experience bounded by our daily rituals and activities. When tragedy and suffering come swooping in, they shatter our tiny boundaries and break our world into pieces.
For a time we are living inside a scream where there seems to be no exit, only echoes. The small cares that seemed so important yesterday seem like nothing, and our daily concerns become petty and irrelevant. When we finally reclaim ourselves, as we ultimately do, we are changed. .."
This is from one of my favorite books, "Simple Truths" by Kent Nerburn. This is a small excerpt from the chapter titled 'Tragedy and Suffering'. This book and another by him "Small Graces" have helped me through some dark moments in my life. I am exceedingly grateful for that.
The April page represents a recent time in my life when color disappeared, my thoughts and feelings tended to be black and white or various shades of gray. Not terribly pleasant in my mind, but the beads sure felt good. Creative thoughts began to return and color was coming back. I could hardly wait to start on the page for May with a burst of color.
For the April page I started with a face cab by Monica Magness, and surrounded it with stacks of size 11/0 and 15/0 seeds beads, then added more 15/0 beads when I drew together the top round of beads. Then added a round of sequins anchored with seed beads. Czech glass flower beads were added for the 'crown' and white beads to complete a circle around the sequins. Next added is a round of glass heart beads, reminding me to radiate love in a situation where it doesn't necessarily come easy. Next are white seed beads and then finishing off the circle are drop beads between the hearts and some really neat vintage triangle sew on's at the tip of each heart.
I accented 5 spirals in the back ground with gray charlottes representing my hope for change and growth.
I'm happy to have the page complete and am so very ready to move on to something with happy colors!
Leaves of Grass
This is what you shall do: Love the earth and sun and the animals, despise riches, give alms to every one that asks, stand up for the stupid and crazy, devote your income and labor to others, hate tyrants, argue not concerning God, have patience and indulgence toward the people, take off your hat to nothing known or unknown or to any man or number of men, go freely with powerful uneducated persons and with the young and with the mothers of families, read these leaves in the open air every season of every year of your life, re-examine all you have been told at school or church or in any book, dismiss whatever insults your own soul, and your very flesh shall be a great poem and have the richest fluency not only in its words but in the silent lines of its lips and face and between the lashes of your eyes and in every motion and joint of your body - Walt Whitman